Yesterday was my last day in the office. Today is my last day of work (I work from home on Fridays). And while on Monday, I thought of working my last full day of work for 14 weeks in the office, the insanity of that particular idea emerged as the week went by. It wasn't as if I have a ton of close friends at the office to say a temporary goodbye to. My farewell tour occupied all of 30 seconds, from 4:50-4:50:30pm Thursday afternoon.
I work for a small company, around 70 people total, 25 or so of whom work with me in the US office, the rest in NZ. And with travel schedules, and me working from home two days per week, there's not a lot of "office comraderie." And 95% of my co-workers are men, so the opportunities for female bonding and gossiping in the ladies' are few and far between. And have I mentioned I'm the first and only woman to get pregnant in the US office? And that the rest of the women (read: 4) I work with are either past child-bearing age or unmarried and not thinking of children right now? And that besides the new administrative assistant we just hired, whom I believe is in her early 20s, there's no one remotely in my age group? I walk alone, my friends. I walk alone.
So it should come as no surprise to you (or to me), that I left the office yesterday without a whole lot of fanfare. Or any fanfare, for that matter. But unfortunately, it does irk me a bit. Now, granted, I didn't expect a shower thrown in my honor. After all, I do work with mainly men, who give as much thought to pregnancy and babies as they do to Tivo-ing Oprah and buying the latest Josh Groban CD. But I selfishly? stupidly? expected something. A card? A small gift from my boss? Something?
I think my resentment is a holdover from my former job, where I worked for seven years. There, I worked with predominantly women, although the male-to-female ratio wasn't nearly as unbalanced as it is at my current employer. And every time someone got pregnant there, be it their first, third, or thirteenth kid, a big deal was made. There were showers thrown. There were gifts bought. There was massive quantities of food consumed. And I attended each that I was invited to faithfully, whether I was particularly close to the mom-to-be or not. And again, I selfishly and stupidly thought, "Ah Ha! When I get pregnant, I'll have my turn finally. People will gather to celebrate me." Well, as you know, getting knocked up took a whole lot longer than I thought it would. And I left for my new job before getting pregnant.
Today my manager is taking me out to lunch. Which is nice of him. I do love my manager. He's very easy-going, and let's me do my job independantly. I don't need a lot of hand-holding, and he respects that. But am I being silly for being bummed that I'm not getting a bigger party at work for my last day?
I work for a small company, around 70 people total, 25 or so of whom work with me in the US office, the rest in NZ. And with travel schedules, and me working from home two days per week, there's not a lot of "office comraderie." And 95% of my co-workers are men, so the opportunities for female bonding and gossiping in the ladies' are few and far between. And have I mentioned I'm the first and only woman to get pregnant in the US office? And that the rest of the women (read: 4) I work with are either past child-bearing age or unmarried and not thinking of children right now? And that besides the new administrative assistant we just hired, whom I believe is in her early 20s, there's no one remotely in my age group? I walk alone, my friends. I walk alone.
So it should come as no surprise to you (or to me), that I left the office yesterday without a whole lot of fanfare. Or any fanfare, for that matter. But unfortunately, it does irk me a bit. Now, granted, I didn't expect a shower thrown in my honor. After all, I do work with mainly men, who give as much thought to pregnancy and babies as they do to Tivo-ing Oprah and buying the latest Josh Groban CD. But I selfishly? stupidly? expected something. A card? A small gift from my boss? Something?
I think my resentment is a holdover from my former job, where I worked for seven years. There, I worked with predominantly women, although the male-to-female ratio wasn't nearly as unbalanced as it is at my current employer. And every time someone got pregnant there, be it their first, third, or thirteenth kid, a big deal was made. There were showers thrown. There were gifts bought. There was massive quantities of food consumed. And I attended each that I was invited to faithfully, whether I was particularly close to the mom-to-be or not. And again, I selfishly and stupidly thought, "Ah Ha! When I get pregnant, I'll have my turn finally. People will gather to celebrate me." Well, as you know, getting knocked up took a whole lot longer than I thought it would. And I left for my new job before getting pregnant.
Today my manager is taking me out to lunch. Which is nice of him. I do love my manager. He's very easy-going, and let's me do my job independantly. I don't need a lot of hand-holding, and he respects that. But am I being silly for being bummed that I'm not getting a bigger party at work for my last day?
I would be bummed too. Although you do get a lunch out of it.
However, I just wanted to point out to you, as small a consolation as it may be--that everyday people gather here to celebrate you and the Beastie because even though most of us don't know you, we think you're pretty fabulous. And I, for one, am EXCITED for you. Probably more excited than I was for the birth of my many cousins' children.
I agree with everyone else. I am sorry that your office did not do anything big for you to celebrate your baby. All of your blog friends are here for you though and we are celebrating for you!
No, I don't think you're being silly! That would seem odd to me. Though as you say, it's just the same as it is every other day there. Do they do birthdays?
LOL @ Cal!!!
ps -- We're heading out to go camping in a few minutes, and I'll be thinking of you in your final moments of pregnancy... in your air-conditioned bedroom, while I'm in a hot, muggy tent! Hey, you could join us!!
No acknowledgement of this amazing milestone in your life? I guess to some degree, you can chalk it up to a bunch of male heteros, but still! Even by male standards, you should have at least received a few congratulatory cigars. Do they know you had difficulty conceiving and about all the hoops you had to jump through to make Beastie? Maybe they're uncomfortable acknowledging that.
Yeah, I'd be a little pissed too, and I think us IFers are especially sensitive to acknowledging the amount of anguish and $$ spent on conceiving said child...
But we will do all the celebrating for you! Who needs work anyway?!
I can't believe those men didn't plan a baby shower for you! The nerve of them! LOL.
I'm glad that your manager is taking you out for lunch, he sounds like a nice man. Did he tie some helium filled balloons to your chair? I hope so!!!
Just kidding. I'd be a little irked too. Especially, since you've probably been to a jillion work showers in the past. Sometimes, it just doesn't seem fair when things don't come back you.
But just think: 4 MORE DAYS!!!!
I'll be thinking of you on Tuesday, anxiously checking your blog for the news.
What time is your c-section scheduled?
OMG, it really is four more days! I will be glued to my computer that day, waiting for Karrie to post the update!
And it must be disappointing to get almost no acknowledgment from anyone in the office. I mean, geez, people! Not so much as a by-your-leave with the exception of lunch? You might as well push for working fulltime at home after this, seriously! What's the point of going into the office if not for human interaction of some sort?
Caryl-You're right. There's nothing like the early days there, huh?
Christine-Aww.. thanks. And I don't want to sound like I feel "unloved." I definitely don't. How could I, with so many supportive friends, both blog and IRL?
Jenny-I'm sure that's exactly what they think. And don't worry. I know I have plenty of people who care!
Cal-No freaking kidding. Remember, it's all about me! ;)
Sher-You're very sweet. But no presents necessary. Just having so many great people reading about my story here and supporting me along the way is present enough for me.
Sunshine-Thank you! That means so much!
Marie-We have one celebration a month for all the birthdays that occur in that month, which is nice. Have fun camping. And I am totally camped out in my bedroom today!
L-No. They don't know a thing about it. I'm sure they think Beastie was conceived "the old fashioned way"! Ha!
Hopeful Mother-That's right!
Ramona-LOL. I know, the nerve of them, right? ;) I'm such a whiner, aren't I? My c-section is scheduled for 9:30am. More details to follow Monday on how I'm relaying the news.
Shannon-I know. Which is why I'm going to be working at home FT in December, and then 3-4 days a week starting in January. What's the point indeed.
Annelynn-Have a great time on your trip. And I'm so glad you've enjoyed following my crazy journey. :)
yes- you'd think that SOMEONE would acknowledge this major life change! Even men should know to collect a gift certificate or card. Good grief!
Oh well- at least you can take comfort that you have the best present waiting for you tomorrow :-)
But i agree- very weird office!!